Have you ever?

Have you ever blogged in your head at the most inappropriate times?  I know you are probably thinking, "Armanda you don't blog with much frequency".  You're right I barely blog once a week.  I would do it more if I didn't create my posts at the wrong time.

I have found myself on more than one occasion blogging in my head during a church service!  The pastor will say something and my mind will start wandering on that certain topic.  Then I will think ooh that would make a good post and then I start composing in my head.  I end up not posting it because I feel guilty because I have been disrespectful to my time with God.  He has forgiven me and I am trying to be better!

So here is to creating blog posts at a more appropriate time.  For example, when the service is over and hopefully I remember the topic :)

Prayer Monday, June 27, 2011

What an AMAZING week I had last week.  We had our Summer network conference which our church hosts. God definitely showed up!  Tears come to my eyes just thinking about how awesome and good He was and still is.  Thank you so much for praying over this for us!

With every good there comes a bad it seems.  The enemy is trying to rain on my spiritual high!  Today I watched my uncle's son, who is a couple months younger than my son, because his wife's mom had a medical procedure last week and is on restriction.  Please be praying for her.  To top that off while I was watching him , his mom calls and says they are taking my grandpa (my mom's dad) to the hospital because he is having a heart attack so she was coming home.  Good news, they don't think it was a heart attack but possibly a blood clot in his lung.  They are keeping him overnight and running tests.  So please pray for his healing.  I am praising God because it could have been so much worse.

Please pray for me also as God continues to draw me to Him.  He has been so good to me and I want to praise Him for His continued blessings.  Even when they don't turn out exactly as I want; He knows best.  That is a hard pill to swallow sometimes.  I am learning to press through with His help.  When I put it into perspective I really don't have too much I should be complaining about.  He has provided so much for me.  I am trying to get out of my valley here where I am whining and complaining all the time.  Pray that I don't lose sight of what God has done for me when I am going through my low and lonely times.

That is something I have been struggling with too.  Loneliness.  I shouldn't be, I have a God who loves me, a husband who is amazing, a beautiful son and an awesome family.   But I don't have that BFF.  That close Christian woman friend that I spend time with sharing life.  I've been having a pity party about that lately.  Pray for me that I get over it :)

Prayer Monday June 20, 2011

Hey ladies!  I have been out of town since last night so this is a little late getting to you so I am going to make this quick.

The big big thing I would like to ask your prayers for is our church network's Summer Conference.  There will be 840 people approximately attending from all of the churches in our network.  I am asking that you pray that God show up in a big way.  That people go to the conference EXPECTING God's presence.  I am so looking forward to this and I know that Satan will try to steal the joy from many people with attack as we start attending.  Please pray for protection against this.  

Thank you so much for the prayers you give on my behalf.  I am so thankful for them!

Prayer Monday, June 13, 2011

I come this week praising God.  My son was sick most of the past week.  I posted about a few days ago.  He had me really worried because he was running a fever all the way into Friday.  I feel like God heard my prayers and healed him.  The little guy certainly has his energy back.

I also got to spend time with my husband and son at an unplanned trip to the zoo yesterday.  We don't often get away and just have a spontaneous day like that.  It was good for us.

I can feel the prayers from all of you.  My attitude has vastly improved over last week and I have started my prayer journal.  I have enjoyed the time spent writing in it.

I do have a few requests this week.  I have one unspoken request that I am not at liberty to discuss because they aren't telling people about it.  So please pray for God's hand and healing in the situation.  I am continuing to pray that God give us guidance for the future.  My husband has been searching for a new job but so far it hasn't been a successful venture.  We are very thankful that he has a job unlike many people but I want him to be happy where he is working.

I also have a personal prayer request for myself. I ask that you pray for me for peace and comfort.  I am sure I will eventually discuss it in a post but right now I am sorting out all of emotions of it.  Right now I don't believe I could eloquently phrase it without sounding like I am not trusting God with this area in my life.

Don't tell me that!

Words you don't want to hear when you take your son to the doctor, " It's most likely just a virus that will have to run its course.  Keep doing what you are doing."

My son has been running a temp. since early Monday morning.  Kids generally have high temps but he really hasn't had one this high before.  Tylenol was keeping it down but it just hasn't been going away.  Then last night I find a lump on the back of his head towards the base of his skull that was squishy and moved.  So I decided we were going to the doctor.  I figured it was a lymph node but wanted medical professionals to confirm it.

Sure enough swollen lymph node which I was told can get larger in children than adults and he has a virus.  Don't get me wrong I think it was $20 well spent.  I would much rather be the over paranoid mom than overlook something very serious.  I would just rather he not be sick at all.  So here's to praying he gets better soon or I have to take him back Friday if he is still running a fever.

My Saturday Evening Attitude Adjustment

I have been suffering from a bad attitude the last few days.  I have had sinus issues as I mentioned in a previous post.  I just don't feel well so I haven't wanted to do much of anything.

Saturday evening was the monthly Team Vine at our church.  This is basically when our lead pastor lets us know what has been going on the last month and other important topics.  Group Leaders have to go early for a group leader portion.  Basically unless we are dying in the hospital or have a really good excuse we should be there.

My husband had to work Saturday.  One of those fun 12 hour shifts.  So this meant I had to go by myself.  I decided I had to go at least to the group leader portion and then I would leave after that.  Well I ended up praying for a fellow group leader after it was over and she walked all the way to the lobby with me to get food.  Then I ran into one of our group members and talked to her for a bit.  Thinking all the while I'll just slip out here in a minute.  Then she says, It's almost time to start we better go get our seats.  UGH!  So I walk in a little ahead of them and chose a seat on the end of a row.  She and her husband decided to sit in the row in front of me.  I was thinking YES  I can slip out sometime in the middle.  As you can tell I was totally not having the attitude I should have been.   Then another friend saw me sitting there without my husband and came to sit by me.  She said her husband wasn't able to make it either so she would just sit with me. NO! I was locked in for the duration.  I felt like God must have really wanted me there because he got really creative with ways to make me stay.  In the end I was glad I did.  I really enjoyed worship and was able to pray for another person.

Honestly, you probably had to be in my shoes to get the comical side of it.  I told my husband the series of events and he thought it was funny that I was trying so hard not to stay and  it seemed God was trying equally as hard to get me to stay.

I love that the Father pursues us like that.  It helped my attitude to start moving in the right direction.  I mean I had to laugh about it or I probably would have cried!

Prayer Monday, June 6, 2011

Ladies I have just been plain weary and exhausted this week.  I have had a sinus issue since last Saturday and to be quite frank it is affecting my attitude.   I am a little less than engaged with God right at the moment.  It's getting a little better and that is due in part because He made me straighten up.  He tugged on me a lot at church on Saturday.  I really didn't want to go to our Team Vine meeting.  I had to go alone because the hubby was working and quite frankly my attitude stunk.  Let's just say by sheer force of will I went and God got creative in the ways He made me stay.  But that is good for another post.

I still need lots of prayer it seems.  Pray that I feel better for one and I am sure that will help tremendously.  Also, right now I am praying my husband is able to find a job God wants him in.  He is so miserable right now and during the summer he works some 12 hr days and sometimes six days a week.  Right now my prayers requests are a little selfish due to lack of focus. I get so caught up in the busy-ness of life.

That being said I have decided to start a prayer journal. I have learned that posting on Prayer Monday makes me sit down and focus more and be more intentional. So I am going to start a prayer journal that I plan on doing daily.  The reality of that is it may happen 3-4 times a week but I am going to call that successful!

Ladies thank you so much for your prayers.  I am going to do like Crystal suggested and praise God more.  I think there are times that if we praise Him even when we don't feel like it that it will be uplifting to our moods.